Timing is everything

Okay, my spine surgery was to have been tomorrow.  It has been cancelled, though, for the time being, while this cyst heals up. 

It's been quite a roller coaster ride getting to this point, and I have had a lot of anxiety about what was going to happen when, but I think I'm in a pretty good place right now.  I had to have a little "come to Jesus" meeting with myself the other night.  I was basically just freaking out, worrying about the surgery being cancelled, worrying that the surgery would go ahead but that infection would somehow mess up the surgery, worrying that maybe it just wasn't meant to be and that's why all these roadblocks were here in the first place.  And on and on ... ad nauseum.   

So I sort of shook myself and made myself think all those crazy thoughts all the way through to the end.  What if surgery is cancelled?  Well ... then it will be rescheduled.  My surgeon is not going to do anything that will jeopardize a successful result for me.  He knows what he is doing, and I must rest in that knowledge and trust him. 

On the referral of my spine surgeon, I saw a general surgeon this week about the cyst.  He opened it up and has given me strict instructions on how to treat it at home the next two weeks, so that it will heal from the inside out.

The good news is, it already feels better.  And, it's started to itch, which I am taking as a good sign, a sign that the healing process has begun. 

I'm really tired of talking about the back stuff, though, so I'm going to take a break from that, until there is something definitive to tell.

On another, much more positive note, it is a beautiful day today in Memphis, Tennessee.  We've had a lot of cold, gray days lately, so to see the sun shining through my blinds is a good thing.  A very good thing. 

On my drive to work, I pass a house with tons of daffodils.  So I stopped one day this week to take a couple quick pictures.  They, of course, do not do justice to how pretty the flowers really are, but here they are, just to brighten your day.