It’s a quiet Sunday morning. I was awake early and couldn’t go back to sleep. It’s been really, really hot. Last night at 10:00 the heat index was still 100 degrees. The actual temperature was in the 90s.
I missed a party yesterday. It was a party I’d helped plan and prepare for. But when it came right down to braving the 100+ degree heat and humidity … I just couldn’t do it. My muscle pain is so much better for the most part – with the exception of “fits and starts” as I call them. But the heat is just doing me in. I feel like a flake and a failure for missing it. I don’t know that people will understand. I don’t even know that I understand.
I’ve been reading a book: What Your Doctor May Not Tell You About Fibromyalgia by R. Paul St. Amand, M.D. It’s been very informative and eye-opening for me, and it has sort of reinforced some things that I suspected were true. Since receiving this diagnosis several months ago, my doctor has given me meds, yes, but virtually no information about this disorder. I don’t do well with no information. I crave information… So I’ve been reduced to getting all my information from the internet. Now … don’t get me wrong … the internet is a wonderful thing. But it can be deceitful and downright dangerous if you tend to believe what you read. (And, News Flash: I tend to believe everything I read – which is insane. I have to struggle not to take everything I read to heart, even when I know it could be blatantly false.)
Our house is still hot. There’s a service person coming tomorrow “between 8 and 12” and I am anxious to get both units serviced and working properly.
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That is way hot. I was in 100 degree weather all weekend... not use to it that hot. I'm lucky to live in the bay area so it's about in the high 80's or so here... Hot, but not that bad.
ReplyDeleteRosie, I lived in the Bay area for a couple years out of college (close to Richmond). I loved it and would love to have some of those cool temperatures.
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